Natashajalil

Assalamualaikum wbt, Its been a while, there is much things going on in my life. So the topic itself is slowly but surely. I am struggling to be better. Yes it is hard.. In shaa Allah may Allah ease every path that He already decree to me. All I need is to trust His plan. Let go and let God. Alhamdulillah for who I am today. I am blessed. May this happiness last forever. Rasulullah SAW said, "How wonderful is the affairs of the believer. For his affairs are all good. And this applies to no one, but the believer. If something good happens to him. He is thankful for it, and that is good for him. And if something bad happens to him. He bears it with patience, and that is also good for him". ( Muslim) May Allah make me and everyone a true believer, Amin!

Assalamualaikum wbt, Hye everyone! I am so excited for today's content because this what I feel right now and In Sha Allah it will last forever. So I've been through this phases where I was so lost and emotionally unavailable. I pushed myself so hard, to regain my composition back isn't easy. It is require times. Alhamdulillah, day by day I am getting better and yes I am not sad or feel any pain anymore. I am moving forward and just carry on with my life as usual. I don't have to feel guilty or whatsoever because I don't deserve to feel that way. I believe His plan are so much better for me. In Sha Allah, May Allah grant me strength and the courage to keeps on moving forward and not glancing back, again. -ntshj

Assalamualaikum wbt, So I just recently started my new semester. First week already full of all the assignment.. smh. I knew that this semester is going to be a tough one. Macam Sir Fadzli cakap, memang la makin naik sem makin naik la level susahnya. Literally crying dalam hati sobs sobs. Apapun in sha allah you can do it! My new chapter and new journey is begin! Focus on your studies and yourself first! Have faith tasha! Semoga dean list lagi and niat belajar kerana Dia 💫 -ntshj

Assalamualaikum wbt, Alhamdulillah dapat dekan lagi! I am so grateful and proud of myself. Semua atas izin Dia, syukur. In sha allah, kalau ada rezeki nak merasa anugerah naib chanselor, amin.. 3 more semester to go! Kena struggle lebih lagi! Aim highest pointer, buat nota awal awal, latihan! -ntshj

Vulnerable, this is when you are at the lowest point of your life. Instead of being strong but you unleash your mask and reveal your true self, broken, shattering, hoping, for someone to come and listen just listen. People tend to be scared to show their true self but for me that is the moment when you are being you. It can’t be fake because that is your true soul and how you feels. People who can’t accept you being vulnerable is meant that they can’t accept you at your lowest. Don’t ever expected them to deserve you at your best. When they can’t even lending their shoulder for you to cry on. -ntshj

Assalamualaikum wbt, So semester 3 already end and I am quite nervous for the examination results. Tbh I am not that confident but I really hope the results is okay and whatever it is I am just grateful. Semester 3 is a really tough one, I can't describe it with words bcs it was just so damn hard and challenging. I was constantly pushing myself to stay strong especially with your mental and mind. I don't think I can survived if I am not mentally strong. I do really hope that all the tears is worth ;) (ps: yes I cried a lot throughout semester 3, it can't be help mate.. ) -ntshj

Assalamualaikum wbt, Firstly, I am just so grateful for everything. I am so happy and contain because what did I done to deserve all of this blessing. Thanks Allah you are the most merciful and greatest, thanks for all the blessing and kindness that you give towards me and my family. The people that I have right now, all of them are so kind and sweet. I can't replace them with anything because there are so precious, priceless and such a gift for me. I am praying that this will last forever, amin ya rabal al amin. Hadza min fadhli rabbi 💫 -ntshj

Assalamualaikum wbt, Basically I have this kind of thought that when I did something I feels kind of not confident with it and then I delete it. I am not comfortable on what people might say when they saw those things. Maybe it just me and my over thinking thingy. I really debating with myself and constantly battling with my own self. My mind is like a battle space that only I know and it was hard actually. I am doubting what I did. I can't let my mind controls my negative thought but that's what happening again and again. Honestly it is getting worse, and I realized it. I am struggling but then at a certain times I feels so confident and I did what I want and act like I don't care what people might say and think because idc thingy. I am scared and afraid that I might lose in my own mind and thought.. -ntshj