2019 2.0

2019 is where I start my internship at estate agent company on early February. My first company is great because I met bunch of new friends. But sadly I can't continue staying there because of the pressure from the environment itself. I never felt so tense and me myself can't tolerate with the surrounding even though I have friends but I am not happy. I am doubting myself whether I can continue staying there or the only choice that I have is quitting and find another company. 

I don't have any option left instead of quitting. I cried along the way going back home. After coming back from work and arrived home at 8:30 pm I decided to ask my parents and they just support every decision that I make. But I have a doubts because I am scared that I would not get other company as soon as possible. After make a long thoughts, I decided that I should quit because I know that there is other company out there for me.

What I feel on that time is sad and scared. I am so scared that I wouldn't finish my diploma because I am so close to the end. Only 1 semester is left for me. Luckily I have a supportive parents and friends. They understand me and advice what is the best for me. And the next day I quit. I never felt so happy and the burden is lifted up from my shoulder. 

I know that I make a right decision and I am so happy but still worried because I don't have any option of other company. I started 2 weeks late than my other friends. I manage to get this company and I guess I am so lucky and He knows better than me. I have no regret because both the company teach me something that I will never get it from anywhere else. What I learned is 

He put me in that situation to teach me something and to test me. And yes, I learned from that situation. 

Now I am much happier and I realized that my problem is nothing much compared to other people out there. At least I have my family close to me and I am super grateful for everyone that was there by my side. You know who you are :)

I guess that's it for today, lesson learned!

-ntshajalil